Solo Parenting

I've been thinking about solo parenting since yesterday was Mother's Day. There are times I wish Layne was still here. I liked it better when he was here to take care of some of the responsibilities. Life was easier. But, I guess that's not the point of this life. It works so much better when a team is working together than just having one person doing it all. I'm still able to find joy in my experiences. I think my biggest thing (besides missing him) is doing it all on my own. And when I say all...I mean all. I'm not just referring to the specifics of being a parent. Although, that certainly feels like enough in itself.

Widow's Fog Clearing

I've noticed the last little while that I have more energy, I'm more capable of taking action, and decisions are somewhat doable. I think most of the widow's fog has lifted for me. The results are being able to get more done, thinking more clearly, and having a desire to actually be social and try new things. I'm no longer sitting at home trying to muddle through. Well, maybe I'll always feel like I'm muddling through life. That might be common. I'm human just like everyone else.
I'm grateful that I'm able to use my brain a little more. I've been able to learn and apply more things. I've also been able to get a few more things done. I might have already said that. It might be what makes me most excited. I've struggled with productivity all my life and I'm actually making some headway with it. So, that's good news and I'm thrilled. I'm hoping to keep it going.