Spirit World

I read something today that reminded me of this idea. I'm not sure I ever wrote it down. It came to mind awhile ago.
I have heard some people that have lost their spouses comment about how when they see their spouse again - they're going to give them a big hug and kiss in greeting. Sounds great. I'm looking forward to seeing Layne again too. Here's the thing. What about the fact that it's the spirit world? Won't we both be spirits at that point? If we don't have bodies - it's going to be difficult to have physical contact. I'm not sure how that's going to work. I just know that there needs to be something to be able to feel connected. Something that makes one feel close to someone they love.
That is all.

Heirlooms

Our family went to a concert tonight. One of the songs sung was Heirlooms. The first verse got to me a little bit. I had a couple of tears appear. It's about looking through memorable items and thinking of family. And, how some of the family isn't there anymore. The verse started and I immediately thought of Layne. All of the memories not just around the holidays - but, with everything else we did too. I guess just another way the holidays remind us of loved ones. It's also another way music has impacted me.

Growing Pains

I just dropped Megan off at volleyball. I was driving out of the parking lot and saw what looked like a family heading toward the gym. The teen girl was joking around with her dad and he put his arm around her. I had the thought: Megan doesn't have a dad to do that with...
I had tears come to my eyes. It hurts sometimes to know that my kids are growing up without a dad. They will go throughout their adult lives - without a dad. Rachel was just nine when he died. I realized as I drove home that I need to do more to help the kids remember their dad. Another thing to work on.:}
It makes it harder to know that Layne would love to be here. He felt a great responsibility in being a father. It was so important to him. I'm sure it still is. It's not like he's all of the sudden not their father anymore. He will always be. He just has to be somewhere else right now. I'm sure he thinks about them and wants the best for them. I would guess he even prays for them. Then there's the whole other topic of whether he thinks I'm doing a good job or not. Ugh. There are so many times I feel like I disappoint him.