Heirlooms

Our family went to a concert tonight. One of the songs sung was Heirlooms. The first verse got to me a little bit. I had a couple of tears appear. It's about looking through memorable items and thinking of family. And, how some of the family isn't there anymore. The verse started and I immediately thought of Layne. All of the memories not just around the holidays - but, with everything else we did too. I guess just another way the holidays remind us of loved ones. It's also another way music has impacted me.

Scents

Just yesterday, I was in the locker room at the local rec center and smelled the strong scent of someone else's soap. For some reason, it made me think of what Layne used to use. I realized I'm not really sure what it's like to know the 'smell of Layne' anymore. I don't know if that sounds odd. But, I don't really remember what he smelled like. I remember I always liked snuggling in. I remember he had a hard time with scents - so, he didn't wear cologne and I never wore perfume. I was fine with that. I was never really in the habit anyway. One less thing to think about/purchase. I also remember he would tell me I smelled good or times he would randomly move in close and smell my hair. So, no perfume, just long hair that smelled 'good'. I guess everyone has their thing.
As I was thinking about the scent of things...I also realized that just a week or so before that...I had something else trigger a thought that I don't remember what it feels like to kiss Layne. I don't remember how the physical closeness felt. Hmm...sounds kind of lonely.